Ok...so I figured if I wrote this all down, it would make it easier to decide what it is I'm going to do. I've been having an internal battle deciding whether or not I want to make this trip. The basic gyst of it is that I am supposed to go to Vancouver-ish (it's all Vancouver down there) to spend some time with my Ex-mother-in-law and her daughter and children. Ok...breathe...that sounds complicated and it is. I was never on bad terms with them per se, but there has been about a two to three year blackout of communication. No talking, no facebooking, no nothing. Somehow...still on good terms. Anyway...pros first...I like to think positive...
- I could use a road trip
- The boys get a chance to spend some time with their grandmother
cons...I'm not doing so good
- The gas money might put me out for next month
- I'm done maternity leave next month and this could be somewhat dangerous
- If I take this trip, I don't get to visit my mom this summer
- I get anxiety attacks making left turns in Prince George...need I say more
- I don't know the roads which makes me uncomfortable
- I'm driving alone
- I have a lot of vehicle maintenance that needs to be done before ANY roadtrip $$$$$
- I don't know how comfortable I am staying at the ex-in-laws
- FOUR KIDS!!! Lord tunderin jesus...four kids for 12 hours...
- No motivation to do this alone and it's not like I can take a friend.
- I have an inspection to complete on my house
- I have windows being installed by the property manager sometime this month
Am I really a horrible person if I just drive them down to Cache Creek and say I can't do this? Secretly I might add...where were the phone calls on birthdays and Christmas...If I'm such an important part of your family, why has there been no contact? This doesn't make me a bad person...I need to say no and I need to not be a pushover about it.
